Saturday, November 28, 2009
I don't think I'll ever understand the bond between straight guys to soccer games, to cars, or to the latest technology in general. But I just can't seem to pull myself out of the charm they have when they are basically, well, just being themselves. I guess this is probably the best reason why I'm still single? You know, the deal with falling for the ones that wouldn't fall for you? It's one of those times where you wished you're living in a fairytale? The maid and the prince, or the homeless and the... (I can't think of more, but you get my point).
The flaunt of muscles, tanned skin, well-styled hair, and lots and lots of crotch exposure turns me off. I'm not discriminating. Those NUM tank-tops wearing guys have their peeps and fans. So if they're happy, god bless them.
Guys that I found myself appealed to are those who just couldn't care less about their looks, and would rather use the time on things more practical. Of course, ideally, he doesn't have to care about self-grooming much.
Hey, I'm just human. I like things that are eye-pleasing. Also, another attribute would be the down-to-earth personality they own. Those bits and pieces that makes you feel safe and secure whenever you're with them. So with that, it really isn't that difficult to conclude,
"oh, he likes straight guys!"To be honest, I've been feeling a little guilty stalking guys over at facebook. Some gays, both closeted or uncloseted ones, who I'll find hilarious. You know, posing and exposing? Others, the straight guys, who I'll find myself mesmerized by the shyness towards the camera or the candid shot of their naturally gorgeous smile. Oh my god, it's freaky how perverted I sounded to myself, but I swear in the love of mutton rendang, it's completely true.
So back me, or safe me. I don't want "ah jack"(for those who know, will know what I'm talking about) to be just some fantasy of mine.
Bingboompia at 1:10 PM
Thursday, November 26, 2009
Why do birds suddenly appear
Everytime you are near
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you
Why do stars fall down from the sky
Everytime you walk by
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you
On the day that you were born
The angels got together
And decided to create a dream come true
So they sprinkled moon dust in your hair of gold
And starlight in your eyes of blue
That is why all the girls in town
Follow you all around
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you
Bingboompia at 6:19 PM
Monday, November 16, 2009
And now I'm starting to feel the hit of enlistment, which is less then a month away. Isn't it funny how a few months back, I was hoping to enlist by the end of this year? Yea, that was when I was practically doing nothing but wasting my bony ass off time. Now, I'm in a place where I'm meeting new people everytime, and will have my week filled with events.
I'll have to make some heavy decisions, and make sure that they're worth it.
Bingboompia at 2:36 PM
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
WE
I have my dearests that loves me for who I am, and me loving them for who they are. We tease each other all the time, but we know what only we'll know.
I love it that each of us are so diverse, yet so similar altogether. I love them, I love us.
We might not understand each other so much all the time. I know nothing about medicals, webpage designing, photography, or insurance etc. But we respect one another for who we are and where we're at.
Everyone of us are growing up so fast, focusing on the things we do more, less time for each other, and meeting new people. A little jealous as I am, I just wanna say, I still love US.
In no particular order,
I love you Kao. I love you Lao. I love you Sao. I love you Sik. I love you Sear. I love you Sy. I love you Ei.
Bingboompia at 2:00 AM
Monday, November 02, 2009
Recently, I finally felt the fulfillment I've been longing for quite some time. It's not back-to-back events that makes my life breathlessly packed. I get to do things that I'm happy to be involved in, and still execute them in my own pace. In addition, it seems that I've learnt how to make better use of my ample free time.
After a horrible sleep on Saturday, I slept really early yesterday night (and by that, I mean 10pm. Judge me all you want.), which result in waking up at 8am this morning feeling all so healthy. Spent time with mum for breakfast, grocery shopping and stuff in the morning, some time online, and out to town in the afternoon. Was pouring heavily, but I enjoyed myself. Browsing through the malls like how I would, snacking as I go like I would, it's some quality self-time spent. Home at night, and straight to dinner with mum in the chilling weather.
Now, it's not the most luxurious lifestyle as you might have pieced out, but it's such a simple and effortless day that not many people can demand for these days.
(I'm starting to miss my dearests again...)
Bingboompia at 9:28 PM
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
actively in facebook...
Bingboompia at 11:53 PM
Wednesday, August 05, 2009
There's no one at the end waitingI'm not ready to speaknor is there anyone out there willing to listenIt's not that simple anymoreWhat I want doesn't matter anymoreWhat I need doesn't matter anymoreit's the drug talking, it's the drug leadingSlowly depleting what's left of methose of my treasureswhat I would smile whenever they're on my mindthose of my treasures, vanishing in front of meWhere are you?There's no more time to hide, no more time for gamesPlease, show yourself.Please, save myself...Bingboompia at 1:31 AM