Bingboompia!

2010-12-29T21:39:00.002+08:00

Two more days to the end of this dreadful year. Maybe it's how life compensate itself after having a wonderful year last year. Or rather, for my life at least?

The year started off rather well, but as soon as my civilian life officially ended, everything is a downward spiral. From family issues, health issues, work issues, to THAT unbelievably dumb act recently, I seriously don't think it has gotten any worse in any of my past 21 years.

Come to think of it, it's almost amusing to think I'm already 22, and turning 23 next year. Most people were shocked to learn about my age when we first met. To be honest, me too. In fact, I don't feel like I'm 18, or 19. And I don't feel like I'm 30 or 40 as well. Ageless, yes, I feel ageless. Psychologically for the most part. Oh damn it, that's not the point of this post.

I know I'll be labeled as "old" when I finished my nation service in 2012, but I really don't want to think or care about that now. I just hope for more strength to pull me through this 1 year and 4 months more. Like how I cheered ever so often in the past, "I can do it! I can do it!"

2010-04-24T13:34:00.002+08:00

halo

first week of my ns,
survived.
office boy lor
all i do is shred paper.
besides that,
all i do is pa bang lor.
not complaining though.
definitely there will be more responsibilities coming up.
but who doesn't wanna earn $$ by doing minimum work?
people there are nice really,
but it's all based superficially for now.
aside from that,
not much excitement is happening to my life.
enjoying my weekends to the fullest now,
alone.
just what i need...

2010-04-18T22:23:00.002+08:00

Halo.

So Friday night turns out to be a surprise bbq for my last few days as a civilian.

Though suspected something wrong with the plans of "going town"

I was caught off-guard with everyone gathered at sik's place for bbq!

These loves.

Can't wait for the pictures!

Carried on to catch up with my other friends as a civilian these few days.

haha.

Saturday morning was band practice.

Celebrated ridhwan's belated birthday.

Hope he liked it.

That night had a prawning session with TSG team.

Celebrated Larry's birthday.

Always fun to hang out with them.

And today,

the last day before I HAVE TO serve the nation.

Got my "office boy" haircut.

Had Japanese food for dinner with mum.

So there,

my few little happy gatherings,

celebrations,

and meet-ups

before i'm a official NS "men"

haha!

wish me luck.

should be sleeping soon now.

sua.

2010-04-16T13:02:00.003+08:00

Halo.
How?
Starting my "full-time job" coming monday.
Which is in 3 days.
fml.
Though it's gonna be easier than the normal NS.
but still.
fuck.
hope everything will go fine.
and guess what?
i'm nervous over what to wear on the enlistment day.
polo tee and pants leh.
can I not?
Can't believe I'm gonna be busy for the next 2 years.
can I not?
I'm gonna stay in one hairstyle for the next 2 years.
can I not?
I'm gonna pause my dream pursuing for the next 2 years.
CAN I FUCKING NOT?
cheebye.
went out for movies with the 3 siaos on thurday.
that's my sao, lao n sik.
watched ju-on black n white ghost.
stupid movie.
lame shit.
some parts are hilarious.
pathetic for a horror movie.
gonna meet them 3 siaos again later in the evening.
don know do what.
eat lor.
laugh lor.
siao lor.
tiao bu lor.
mum have been unbearably naggy these days.
Nag me about putting too much ice in my water.
Yea, ice is the new cancerous substance that you can possibly put in your body.
beware of ice.
fml.
even enjoying a cup of coffee with your nasi padang is bad for you.
cause you're "mixing sweet and savoury food together"
Can she not?
it's paranoia to me.
it's paranoia towards me.
it's like telling americans they're having too much cheese.
or telling indians they are having too much curry.
can she not?
this is more of a post filled with angst as you can see.
fml.

2010-04-14T02:25:00.002+08:00

Ha lo.

I like today.

I'm happy today.

I recovered from my flu.

That idiotic flu.

That one-week idiotic flu.

I shall name that flu "Alibaba".

I don't wanna see "Alibaba" again.

TTYN Alibaba.

Had Nasi padang for brunch today.

The macik who served me very friendly.

I like.

I eat.

I ate.

Burp.

On the net throughout the afternoon.

Took a nap in the evening.

Met my soos and loos at night at plaza.

Miss them so much.

Loos calls me "loo C" now.

No idea why.

Maybe BY knows.

Chilled, laugh, joke, chat, ate & ate & ate & ate through the rainy night.

Few bitches laughed at me when I walk pass.

Might be BY's friends.

I don't care.

I've got my loves who love me.

They can laugh all they want.

Met sik at railmall.

Bukit timah that is.

Sik lost weight.

Must be his ultra busy schedule.

Slack and ate (somemore) at Ah mei kaya toast.

Felt so comfortable there.

Went off at midnight.

Went crazy at the bus stop.

Over BY.

And loos, no. I love you guys more than BY.

I wanna laugh like this everyday.

With my loves.

Gonna see my loos and soos again tml.

Love them.

2010-01-19T02:41:00.003+08:00

Guys, still confused over how Ah Jack looks like?

Just imagine an Asian version of Curtis Stone. He is just OMG! So straight, couldn't care any lesser about his appearance, and I think the best husband material!

When are you gonna appear Ah Jack?

2010-01-03T22:39:00.003+08:00

Right now, I just wanna travel to the most exotic place, and just disappear there.
All I wanna feel is the wind brushing off my skin.
All I wanna see are the clouds below me dancing.
I wanna feel belonged.
I wanna be understood.
I wanna just, vanish.
What sin have I committed that lead me to become human?
Humanity, truly, is a punishment.

2009-12-30T12:43:00.003+08:00

Year 2009...

Seems to be the worse year in history generally; From the economy, to the deaths of the people's favorite idol. But in fact, I couldn't be thankful enough for this year. If there has to be a word to summarize this year, it would definitely have to be "opportunities". From the internship earlier this year, to the freelance writing gigs, and of course, my tini mini winy modeling dream fulfillment.

But the year of 2009 seems to be a rough year for relationships I feel. Not necessarily romantic relationships. Family and friendships seems to be proven tedious throughout the year. Though I might not be involved in most of them, but I certainly hope things will improve when the new decade comes.

2009-12-23T20:12:00.002+08:00

A bet against myself:

In 3 years time, when I'm 24, I'll be having my own apartment. My private space, with my own furniture and shit. I don't care if it's gonna be small, I want it mine. Not too far away from my mum's though, just so I can just walk over for dinner or something. It's about time I get some privacy. Some grown-up privacy.

And before I'm 27 or 28(THE MOST!), I'll be having my own apartment in London. By then, I'll be writing or styling for a publication. Dazed & Confused? I certainly wish for...

Funny thing is, these are SO MUCH MORE realistic as compared to those from 2 years back... Oh my god... I hate to see myself being demoralized by time.

2009-12-22T19:19:00.002+08:00

So, that's it?

I was a proud FJSBee. Then, I was a contented Alumni of the FJSBees. Now, I see no point of associating myself with the band anymore. Bitter, but true. To me, FJSB is not FJSB without him. So though I hate to say, but I guess it would be the last time that I'll be looking at the place where I spent my most meaning 5 years in.

The day that we have been dragging, has arrived... But it's not a goodbye! :D

2009-12-05T19:30:00.002+08:00

Hi there gorgeous~~

Right now, these are like, TO DIE FOR.

2009-12-05T09:31:00.002+08:00

They are my flaws. It's like using my flaws against me. I know I'm flawed. You reassured, showed me my reflection, "You are flawed!".

2009-12-05T08:54:00.002+08:00

For your consideration:

If I were to be 20kg or 30kg overweight, would I be slammed with words like "I would never wanna be as fat as you." or "You're having so much fats covering your body, you can slap me with them."? I bet not. If I were to be that overweight, would they be showing some sympathy and concerns over my feelings? My self-esteem? Would you? Of course you will. Because you know they are battling with their reflections in the mirror all the time.

Flip-side, I'm obviously underweight. So underweight, I'm no longer comfortable talking about my weight anymore. With addition to that, I was treated like I'm enjoying it. Bringing me down with "Your bones are sticking out!" or "I will never wanna be as skinny as you".

It funny how people thinks it's fine to tackle skinny people with appearance issues as compared to overweight people. Yes, thinness might have been glamorized over the media, but that doesn't mean that all skinny people feels good about themselves. They don't wanna be referred as "that pile of bones" all the time. Especially if you are their close friends.

I'm tired. People gained massive amount of weight through stages of their lives, gone through extreme diets and exercise sessions and never lose weight. Similarly, people lost significant amount of weight throughout the years, has an impressive appetite, and still can't gain weight. When will people start to realize that I'm still human? I get hurt. I have feelings.

When will I be taken seriously? When will I ever be your friend?

2009-12-05T08:09:00.002+08:00

I should have seen this coming. It's one of those things that would appear extraordinarily sweet on the TV series FRIENDS, but you know it would be extremely rare for it to happen in real-life situations. Some are genuinely happy for me, and I really appreciates that. But I do sense some other sentiments from the others. I really do hope those are inaccurate senses, cause they are ultimately my loved ones, and I would slash and kill anything that irritates that relationship.

I can't speak for all, but I would be overjoyed over any kind of success achieved by my loved ones. From Sear sear's NP strings concert couple of years ago (in which she dominated most part of the concert, from violin, to piano, even to conducting), to sik's drum major and cheer-leading moments, I can blatantly exclaim that I was really happy and felt proud for them.

To be really honest, they have been one of my main mental support system. Though I might be reserved in sharing personal stuff, but just to see them and be with them has always been comforting and providing that "security" I always needed. We would exchange advises all the time, but by the end of the day, we respected each others decision in life. At least, I know I did.

Really saddening to say this, but I'm starting to question the support I use to have...

2009-11-28T13:10:00.003+08:00

I don't think I'll ever understand the bond between straight guys to soccer games, to cars, or to the latest technology in general. But I just can't seem to pull myself out of the charm they have when they are basically, well, just being themselves. I guess this is probably the best reason why I'm still single? You know, the deal with falling for the ones that wouldn't fall for you? It's one of those times where you wished you're living in a fairytale? The maid and the prince, or the homeless and the... (I can't think of more, but you get my point).
The flaunt of muscles, tanned skin, well-styled hair, and lots and lots of crotch exposure turns me off. I'm not discriminating. Those NUM tank-tops wearing guys have their peeps and fans. So if they're happy, god bless them.
Guys that I found myself appealed to are those who just couldn't care less about their looks, and would rather use the time on things more practical. Of course, ideally, he doesn't have to care about self-grooming much. Hey, I'm just human. I like things that are eye-pleasing. Also, another attribute would be the down-to-earth personality they own. Those bits and pieces that makes you feel safe and secure whenever you're with them. So with that, it really isn't that difficult to conclude, "oh, he likes straight guys!"
To be honest, I've been feeling a little guilty stalking guys over at facebook. Some gays, both closeted or uncloseted ones, who I'll find hilarious. You know, posing and exposing? Others, the straight guys, who I'll find myself mesmerized by the shyness towards the camera or the candid shot of their naturally gorgeous smile. Oh my god, it's freaky how perverted I sounded to myself, but I swear in the love of mutton rendang, it's completely true.

So back me, or safe me. I don't want "ah jack"(for those who know, will know what I'm talking about) to be just some fantasy of mine.

2009-11-26T18:19:00.002+08:00

Why do birds suddenly appear
Everytime you are near
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you

Why do stars fall down from the sky
Everytime you walk by
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you

On the day that you were born
The angels got together
And decided to create a dream come true
So they sprinkled moon dust in your hair of gold
And starlight in your eyes of blue

That is why all the girls in town
Follow you all around
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you

2009-11-16T14:36:00.002+08:00

And now I'm starting to feel the hit of enlistment, which is less then a month away. Isn't it funny how a few months back, I was hoping to enlist by the end of this year? Yea, that was when I was practically doing nothing but wasting my bony ass off time. Now, I'm in a place where I'm meeting new people everytime, and will have my week filled with events.

I'll have to make some heavy decisions, and make sure that they're worth it.

2009-11-11T02:00:00.003+08:00

I have my dearests that loves me for who I am, and me loving them for who they are. We tease each other all the time, but we know what only we'll know.

I love it that each of us are so diverse, yet so similar altogether. I love them, I love us.

We might not understand each other so much all the time. I know nothing about medicals, webpage designing, photography, or insurance etc. But we respect one another for who we are and where we're at.

Everyone of us are growing up so fast, focusing on the things we do more, less time for each other, and meeting new people. A little jealous as I am, I just wanna say, I still love US.

In no particular order,

I love you Kao. I love you Lao. I love you Sao. I love you Sik. I love you Sear. I love you Sy. I love you Ei.

2009-11-02T21:28:00.003+08:00

Recently, I finally felt the fulfillment I've been longing for quite some time. It's not back-to-back events that makes my life breathlessly packed. I get to do things that I'm happy to be involved in, and still execute them in my own pace. In addition, it seems that I've learnt how to make better use of my ample free time.

After a horrible sleep on Saturday, I slept really early yesterday night (and by that, I mean 10pm. Judge me all you want.), which result in waking up at 8am this morning feeling all so healthy. Spent time with mum for breakfast, grocery shopping and stuff in the morning, some time online, and out to town in the afternoon. Was pouring heavily, but I enjoyed myself. Browsing through the malls like how I would, snacking as I go like I would, it's some quality self-time spent. Home at night, and straight to dinner with mum in the chilling weather.
Now, it's not the most luxurious lifestyle as you might have pieced out, but it's such a simple and effortless day that not many people can demand for these days.

(I'm starting to miss my dearests again...)

2009-09-30T23:53:00.001+08:00

actively in facebook...

2009-08-05T01:31:00.002+08:00

There's no one at the end waiting
I'm not ready to speak
nor is there anyone out there willing to listen
It's not that simple anymore
What I want doesn't matter anymore
What I need doesn't matter anymore
it's the drug talking, it's the drug leading

Slowly depleting what's left of me
those of my treasures
what I would smile whenever they're on my mind
those of my treasures,
vanishing in front of me

Where are you?
There's no more time to hide,
no more time for games
Please, show yourself.
Please, save myself...

2009-06-12T01:43:00.003+08:00

Wa Sy's 21st Birthday!!

2009-06-07T12:25:00.002+08:00

Are you happy?

Just like how a pack of banana chips that looked so good and promising with the stamp "Product of Thailand", but only to realise it's as tasteless as a gum over-chewed. And you know you have to at least finish 3/4 of the pack in order for it to fit into the container (which you will never touch again till it turns bad after a few months before you have an excuse to chuck it off your sight).

I wouldn't say I'm like a depressed, fucked-up chipmunk crying in the corner of my brother's humid bedroom because I'm lucky enough to always be surrounded by really positive and caring people.

Cozy Sunday... Have a good coming week people :)

2009-06-05T06:40:00.003+08:00

God, I'm SO SLOW!

My beautiful Sear Sear @ some Australian beach:

From Xiang xiang's blog. We miss you Sear Sear! And hope you don't mind I post your pictures here! :D

2009-06-02T03:25:00.001+08:00

Some things just came in a flash. All unprepared, you’re inundated by all these unforeseen personal emotions that makes you freeze in astonishment. It’s not what I’m feeling now is anything foreign; it’s how this unanticipated new reaction to the already existing cycle of occurring events that’s inadaptable.

Handing both hands to fascination might be an ease, but when guilt has a rigid stand in the mind battle-place, it’s almost mentally suicidal.

How could this have happened, and how did I ever place myself in such a position? Everything started from, and revolves in one place, and that’s me. Just get it over with before it even starts approaching other bubbles.

2009-05-03T03:39:00.004+08:00

Fuck shit!

Is it even apposite to feel a little unfamiliar in my own blogger crafting page?

Anyway, for people who still care, I'm coping eveything pretty well. Hmm... qualms are bound to be present no doubt, especially when we're still learning how to be a fine adult. But overall, I'm pretty pleased with the things that are happening in my life right now.

Ok, that shall be the updates of my life for now. Moving on to my main motive for this post:

I just finish watching a late Saturday night movie, "Birth", directed by Jonathan Glazer. I've got to say, I was astonished by how stunning the film is even though it had generally gathered pretty disappointing reviews. Nicole Kidman's performance, whom I've always thought is too subtle and prosaic, was just amazing in the film.

The musical score throughout the film was such an innovation. Orchestral, classical music for such a modern and contemporary film never worked this well for me before.

And can I say Jonathan Glazer is now my new hero?

*Never knew that I would be appraising a film one day*

2009-04-10T20:59:00.002+08:00

Oh well, so it seems like it's another semester for me in the breath-taking Republic Poly :)

Saw the graduation posts and pictures from my close friends, and felt really happy for them.
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Ok! I admit! I was a little dishearten to see them in the graduation cape and smiling hassle-freely, proudly and wittily with their parents. I admit!

I hope to see them again :( Missing them SO much, but everyone seems so freaking busy! Myself included of course. *Counting* It's has been almost 2 months since we last met each other!

-Who's gonna crap in the life-less classroom with me?
-Who's gonna witness my weird daily cravings for our school's waffles and soursop ice dessert with me?
-Who's gonna gossip about the weird facilitator and her ultra unnatural curly "meggy mee" hair with me?

Oh well, I'm only going to school twice per week, so I guess it should be ok. hmm?

2009-03-16T03:42:00.003+08:00

Just in case anyone's thinking that I'm already dead or something, this post is here to serve it's purpose. I'm all well guys :)

A month of internship with Bazaar has been a superb experience. I've experienced and learnt SO much and got to know all these amazing people, which is a whole new level as compared to what I've absorb through a flat 3 years old laptop screen. So much hands-on work.
I got to know most of the fabulous fashion brands people, get to touch the samples and know how heavy a coat covered in sequins from Burberry can be, and how difficult and time-consuming it is to get a perfect shot.
The fast-paced environment is definitely not a joke. One page down, another page is just right across the shoulders waiting.
Last week, we had this photoshoot which required the whole day. By the end of the day, with the massive amount of props, accessories, pieces, etc, even the Editor-in-Chief and Art Director helped us to carry those things into the bus. How humble can this people get?

Really had a super great time there.

For now, I would have to focus on the rework of my first FYP for two weeks.
Just to keep the story short:
-received a letter from RP saying that I've failed to meet the requirements of graduation from RP.
-GPA was 1.98, which I improved. But still not enough for a graduation.
-Programme chair sent me an email and stated that if I can rework on my FYP01 and improve the grade, I might be able to pull up the grade and hence, fuck off from RP.

So see how la.

Get done with this, back to Bazaar, and see if I have to retake another semester. If I have to, I'll dicuss with the Bazaar team. If not, I'll stay there for sure! :)

2009-02-17T22:32:00.002+08:00

Hmmm... Things has been very different for me now even if it's just the second day. Getting intimidated every single day, seeing and greeting people that I admire and use to see on the magazine. How much thought is put in for just a single page or story. The complicated process of arranging a shoot and how much time can be spent on it. Really an eye-opener.
The team's really really nice too! They respect and listens to everyone. Would apologize and thank us when giving us task. Things on Devil Wears Prada and Ugly Betty couldn't get any more untrue, well, for Bazaar's case.

ok, should head to bed soon. :)

2009-02-15T22:00:00.002+08:00

Wish me luck guys :)

2009-02-14T01:18:00.002+08:00

As far as I can remember, I've always been bombarded with phrases like "It's the best to be young/in school/a child.". I never knew what it means, not to say understood it, cause I thought at such a young age, you have absolutely no freedom of doing whatever you like. Now, I guess I know what the "adults" then are thinking.
In a few more months, I'll officially get my "keys" to adulthood. Ready or not, it's still a question. So much insecurities for the future, that's the killing part.

When we were still in that ugly teal uniform, all we have to do is to make sure that the fomula's stuck right into our brains, know the strokes of that difficult chinese character well, or make sure that annoying history teacher will leave the class feeling miserable.
Every Mondays and Fridays, sometimes Wednesdays and Saturdays, we'll head straight to the music room with that familiar earthy scent to set up our instruments, have our sectionals (with some small slacking time when the leaders/teachers/toh wasn't around), and all gather back for a combine session to prepare for a competition or performance.
Now all grown-up, though almost all had distanced ourselves from music, we're still as one. Still having silly jokes, imitating different funny accents, and making fun of each other in every single way. It's almost like a getaway everytime, like an escape from the sometimes harsh reality dimension.

Adulthood, our next few steps, closer or futher it would lead us to be, nobody knows. But what we do know, now, is that we're all in love with each other.

Sear sear~ Really wish you luck and success over there alright? :')

2009-02-11T03:05:00.001+08:00

WA KAO~~~ WA SAO~~~

2009-02-11T00:19:00.000+08:00

Finally!

One last reply to wait now... :)

2009-02-05T15:10:00.001+08:00

Waiting's really a fucking bitch.

Argh!

2009-01-26T01:50:00.002+08:00

happy chinese new year guys :)

I'm watching discovery channel's "shanghai bus terminal" now. A show about how people from all over china working in shanghai all year round catch the buses to go back home to celebrate CNY.
It's really touching. :'(

All kinds of people, in all kinds of situation.

2009-01-22T22:54:00.003+08:00

How leh guys?

Tomorrow would be the last day of my RP life.

Alright, I'm not that certain actually. But there might be a possibility. Anyway it is, I'll just put it that way alright? (maybe just a silly reason for me to get emo XD)

After tomorrow's class, would be the hectic preparations for CNY. Did most of it already, but there're still things to be done.
Another thing to tire myself with, fashion weeks. Milan Menswear's just over, and soon, would be paris, with longer show lists. With it all end at sunday, it would STRAIGHT AWAY be couture spring 09 from mon to wed. God. Imagine myself checking the shows with my oily hands shoving down ba guas. HAHA!

2009-01-20T02:56:00.003+08:00

Sometimes, I wonder...

Who are you people?

For this group:
I love each and everyone of you guys so so so so much, but I just hope we wouldn't need a central manager. Like, I would just call anyone of you and ask you out. Not through someone else.

For this group:
Though it seems very general, you guys are one of the nicest people I've ever met. Never been out with you guys b4, just once, which is a pity.

For this group:
Very crazy. Haven't been meeting up with you all much liao.

For this group:
I've no idea why it has been such a long time since i last saw u guys.

I can't imagine myself without you guys.... :'(

2009-01-13T02:43:00.002+08:00

OMFG!
@ LAO'S 18TH BIRTHDAY.
What was I thinking? And did I ate a whole cow or something?! Those cheeks!

Anyway, FYP's over. Finally?

And while rushing all the documents for the project, I've once again lost some weight due to stress...

I know 51.5kg doesn't sound like a healthy weight, but I guess that's stress afterall... Can I call it the stress weight? HAHA!

Looking back at that photo, I guess that's when I weigh at 66 or 67kg.

Ok, I know what you guys are thinking, but no, I eat normally. I do tried to gain some weight awhile ago, with ice cream and junk food near me always. I gained back a little, like to 54kg? Along with facial breakouts.

I'm changing my habits now, with more health food, though I do have my fastfood sometimes.

Alright, should be sleeping now. cya guys!

2009-01-13T00:11:00.002+08:00

Anyways, I'm afraid I'm gonna sound extremely shallow on this, but:

I NEED MONEY! :'(

If you're finding too much annoying cash filling your purse/wallet, and simply just can't find anything else to spend those useless money on, please, for the sake of Obama, contact me. :D

2009-01-12T23:54:00.002+08:00

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY AR MEI MEI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

MY COM JUST REFORMATTED, SO NO MORE PICS AR MEI MEI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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2009-01-04T20:59:00.003+08:00

Now. Tomorrow school reopens. I'll try to have my final boost that might end this fuck.

I'll TRY.

If not, it's another semester there. Though, superficially, it does not sound nice, it do has it's pros.

But we'll see. Ok, gotta study for tomorrow's UT. BYE!

2009-01-01T16:41:00.002+08:00

Oh well, the last time I shocked myself for being in the month of December ALREADY, should end now. Cause it's THE NEW YEAR!

2009?

gosh...

I guess it can't be avoided.

For 2008, I learnt alot. Infinitely. As usual. And I'm grateful for that.

Acquired new friends, while lost some. Maintained those dearly ones, while faded some. It's ok. It wouldn't be life if things hasn't gone the way it went.

But was it a year I used it wisely? I'm not sure.

So for 2009, I foresee some shocking decisions. Risky decisions.
For 2009, I foresee some opportunities, great wisdom opportunities.

Resolutions:
Start on what I really want to, and SHOULD.
Keep in touch with everyone.
All wishes come true.
Everyone's healthy. Please.
Be happy :)

2008-12-29T03:17:00.002+08:00

more updates to come.

But first, I would like to introduce sg's very own (self-proclaimed) PCD, here. Get ready your puke bucket.

Saw them in cine on saturday with sao, in the hk restaurant to be exact. Disgusting is one thing, we still have to admire their bravery.

2008-12-20T02:35:00.002+08:00

How funny!

Was looking for notebooks for the past few days(was thinking about them for weeks), and Style: mag came up with this spread on notebooks this issue! Was more than pleased to see that report.

Anyway, yi just bought heroes of might and magic yesterday, and has been playing since then.

Being his impulsive buying self, does sometimes benefit his surrounding peeps. HAHA! IT'S SO FREAKING FUN! Has been playing heroes since it's second? or third edition.
I know, gaming sounds weird relating to me, but I do have to confess that I'm quite a game-geek when it comes to those that I REALLY like. Like the final fantasy series and some other RPG like legend of legaia.

It definitely good you know? Finding a alternative of your focus can be stress relieving. When I'm stressed out from school, I need fashion, as you guys already know. And when fashion needs a break in me, I need games.

Ok, I'm starting to make no sense. Cya guys!

2008-12-12T02:01:00.003+08:00

YEAH!

I know, it's really late now, but I just can't resist to say, IT'S THE HOLIDAYS TOMORROW!!

WOOOHOOOO!!!

To my friends who are skipping the coming lesson, wish all of you a merry christmas and a happy new year! HAHA! Cause I wouldn't see you guys till after all those holidays! :D

2008-12-06T10:30:00.003+08:00

Alright, it's already DECEMBER!! And it still feels like my last breath was still in January. God, and don't you guys notice that when you get older, you get to say this more often? With more amazement?

It's like time dashes by more hastily as you grow.

Anyway, it's gonna be a much festive season this 2 months. Hari raya, then christmas, then CNY...

2008-12-02T23:41:00.002+08:00

God, I promised myself not to think about it already, but it's still fucking stuck there.

You know, I thought for this semester, I've tried hard enough. But now, I've come to realised that the problem, eventually, still lies in me. I tried to be as attentive in class as possible, learn as much as I can, but it just doesn't reflect in my grades.
Some of my friends are getting much better grades that me when they hardly come for classes. So obviously, that got to show that I'm just slow. How ignorant to notice that now.

2008-12-01T00:50:00.001+08:00

One of my favourite opening them song from an anime would have to be El-Hazard's:

I remembered that I would KILL to be able to play this song when I'm still in band.

2008-11-27T01:26:00.002+08:00

This is NEEDED to be delivered.

Guys, I know I'm not the best friend you can find, I know that myself. Not answering calls, not returning them, back out from an outing the very last minute, I know.

But I just want to say that, with all those listed above, doesn't mean that I don't APPRECIATE you guys. I do, I really really do. I think I've been a very lucky person in getting to know all these people around me. They're all amazing good people.

So, thank you. :)

2008-11-23T21:36:00.002+08:00

Facial breakout!

You guys should know, I don't have the clearest skin in the world. And with schools everyday, worrying about fucking grades, certainly aren't helping much.

So I need to head to lalaland soon. Latest 10.30pm. Bye.

2008-11-20T23:21:00.004+08:00

Facilitator: There's a "A" and a "F" for (HR) UT1.
Us, including me: Who who who?!?! (and carried on asking question for hints of the scorers)
Facilitator: "A" is a girl. And I forgot who got the "F".

And when Yi xiu told me that the UT grades are out, I finally knew why she said "she forgot".

I'm the "F".
Don't ask me why. I thought I would have something BETTER.

Some motivation please?

2008-11-18T00:50:00.003+08:00

OH! ONE LAST POST BEFORE I HEAD TO THE BATHROOM:

Went to Vivo with sao some time ago.

CANT.STOP.LAUGHING! HAHA!

2008-11-18T00:43:00.002+08:00

Anyway, I'm going vegetarian this week. I've been in some junk-brat mode for a while now.

Friends have been teasing me about how I will give up. NO! I CAN! WATCH ME!

2008-11-18T00:33:00.006+08:00

God. I'm fucking sorry to this space.

I think it can be my ranting blog instead. And thanks for dropping tags even though I've been barely posting.

Life has been... normal I guess. For school, fyp's almost completed, there seems to a higher chance of completing the CE points SHIT earlier, and all I need now, is persistence and motivation. I just can't bring myself to bed at 9pm anymore, which is something bad. And besides, I'm about to use up my "leaves" in school. DAMN IT!

Or maybe I just need more coffee.

Alright, time check, 12.41 now. I'm still having some hot fresh SG Style: and Bazaar mags beside me that needs some attention. Off to brush my teeth first! Bye :D

2008-11-05T00:31:00.009+08:00

Sik's bday was a blast. Everyone was there, after so long, and it just doesn't get better than that. Most importantly was sik's happy, the rest would be secondary. Love that night.

Oh, and people, if you haven't tried Sushi Tei, please do. Agree with kao, it's the best japanese restaurant the provides the best japanese food.

pics from Eiei's flickr and eiorpeieh's photo bucket.

2008-11-01T14:58:00.002+08:00

You know, I'm done trying.

It's either you get used to it, or tired of it. For me, it's the latter, and besides, it's not worth my time. Not in a snobbish kinda way, but in a literal, customary way.

I'm starting to even THINK if the whole matter is fit be defined as something worth sympathizing. Friends do come and go, but if you wanna end it in such a bitchy and crude way, all I can say is that YOU need more maturity enlightenment. I'm almost ashamed of acknowledging that we're of the same age.

2008-10-28T02:54:00.002+08:00

*~*~Ii MiGhT Ju3T kIiLl MiieSeLf Iif MiIe wEr3 2 WriItie iNn tHiSss wAaaIie~*~*

*-*-Mii3 m3AnSs, HaOw hArdie iSs tHIs?!?!?!-*-*

<3<^o^><3>

2008-10-22T01:38:00.002+08:00

I really don't know...
What should I think?

I just seem to live in this imaginary world which seems that the only person who knows what's going on, is pretty much just me. Watched this "horror" movie shown on channel 8 the recent weekends about this girl with the obsession for death photography. On the phone with sao, I was agreeing with her how gruesome and twisted the show is, but honestly inside, I was thinking it's completely fine. It's just another "interest", lightly shall I say.

Not to sound flaunting on how open-minded I am, it's just that I'm pushed to such limitation of creativeness that I'm starting to extend my own "politically accepted" perception.

I'm finding myself more and more lazy sartorial-wise. I would still make it a point to be true to myself even if I has just 3 hours or sleep, in the past. Now, it more of grab, plunge, coffee, go.

Or maybe it's how fed-up I am towards those ignorant people? Who still gives you strange stares? Just when I'm getting a little hearten by how singaporeans are (a little) more liberally styled, and found out I'm wrong, again. I mean, people are defining the Chanel logo as "fashionable". Status and flamboyance can be present, of course. But to name these people as "fashionable" just seems like an insult to the fashion industry, I'm sorry. I'm having ample respect to karl lagerfeld, but his creations are just getting too commercial, especially his accessories!!
This aside, am I still spotting Gladiators around?!?!?!

ok! I should stop now, these, should be in TraiT.

2008-10-12T11:22:00.002+08:00

THE SOOS CHU MEN MEI YOU JIANG BU FANG WAX DE AR?!?!?!?!

2008-10-07T23:07:00.002+08:00

HAHA!

I almost forgot!!

I CUT MY HAIR like 2 weeks ago! Think along the lines of Victoria Beckham's new hair.

Oh, in fact, don't have to think:

Out with sao last Sat

How? Smart move? Wrong move? Nothing to move?

2008-10-03T23:43:00.001+08:00

Amazing song!

2008-09-28T23:19:00.002+08:00

I know it's past my supposed sleeping time, but COME ON! I CAN'T SLEEP AFTER THE UTTERLY EXCITING&AMAZING F1 RACE!!

Am truely proud of Singapore really. And if you didn't catch the race (for whatever fucking reason), just pray that channel 5 will have a re-telecast of it. Neither had I watched a full race in my life before, nor do I know the names of the racers, but it doesn't stop my from sticking my boney ass on the sofa. And the view of Singapore, DAMN! It's definitely a reminder of my ride on the Singapore flyer.

Anyways, there'll be NO SCHOOL ON TUESDAY AND WEDNESDAY!

AND I GOT AN A FOR HOSPITALITY! FINALLY?!

2008-09-19T23:15:00.002+08:00

Week 2 grades.

A "C" from hospitality again. But I do admit that the problem lies in me for not submitting the RJ in time. So.. well..

Too tired to care about this blog people. Sorry. Somethings to be updated tomorrow. Bye :)

2008-09-13T11:34:00.003+08:00

Am I tired OR WHAT?!

Ok, my weekdays was really well spent. All school of course, but at least I was focused. I was sleeping at 9++ everynight, as how I promised myself to. So for my first problem grades:

I'm still fucking pissed by the C grade, given from Hospitality and Retail systems. I participated like I was on high, my RJ was in essay length, and I (thought I) did a fairly good job in team discussions and coming out with the presentation slides! I don't know why, but I'm killing myself for trying hard to not think about it.

Fuck one you know...

2008-09-06T13:38:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I wonder, the politics in friendships just don't end do they? And yes, there IS, admit it people.

Anyway, I'm back to school now. By choice or not, I'm all hyped-up than ever. And the support system I'm having's great too, just what I need to further push myself. It's been 3 days only though, but I felt I've done an average job. A better job should be done! GO!

"It's only four months, get over and done with it!"

Somehow, like what Jwen said, I really start to enjoy this kind of life. Always busy with something, not home straight after school. And back home, I still can't get over my Trait, so it's still being updated regularly.

So people, wish me luck!

2008-09-01T19:23:00.003+08:00

Out in the morning to RP for a short meeting with the course chairman to discuss about my painful results.

So here's the plan.

I've got 5 class modules, as I failed one last semester, so have to retake another one. And that means, no free wednesdays.
For each of the modules, I HAVE TO get AT LEAST a B grade.
Besides that, I've got the FYP which I have to get AT LEAST a C+ grade. With addition of only being able to meet up during lunches, after school or weekends.
And lastly, I've got 30+ CE points to gain throughout the month.

With all these above, I'm able to graduate after this coming semester. I really wanna give it a shot, and like what the chairman said, it's just four months of my life. 4 MONTHS, get over and done with.
So there might be alot of sacrifices I have to make for the smooth sail of the 4 months. Like my trait blog, social activities and the part-time job for F1 race late this month.

So friends, I would need any form of motivation for the coming 4 months. I'm coming up with a schedule and hopefully I would be able to stick with it firmly.

2008-09-01T19:17:00.005+08:00

Celebrated Grandma's 80th birthday yesterday evening. Mum bought a customize cake which is SOOO huge, the whole family can only barely finish HALF of it. But it was nice though :)

2008-08-31T14:16:00.003+08:00

Was feeling ultra restless yesterday, and it was a last minute decision to head town with sao. Yes, town again. Met sik halfway through and headed to his place just to laze around and headed home just past midnight.

LOVE this pic.

2008-08-30T01:11:00.005+08:00

Just back from a trip to Raffles city, Suntec and Marina square from 6pm to almost midnight. Baffling thing was, I slept at 5am and woke up at almost 2pm today but somehow, I felt EXHAUSTED!

2008-08-29T04:29:00.005+08:00

Wednesday night was a short and simple but sweet dinner with mei mei, jwen and naz at IMM's Spaghetti Too which was delicious(or we were just plain hungry?).

2008-08-27T15:16:00.004+08:00

Ok, whatever.

I'm moving on, and on the bright side, I have a longer time to fulfill my CE points!!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!

ya.

Anyway, caught "12 Lotus" with mum and aunt at Plaza Singapura yesterday evening. It's based on an old popular hokkien song about a girl and her 12 chapters of pitiful life. I would have to say "881" is still much MUCH better in terms of storyline. "12 lotus" has a really really good start, but anything after the time-skip, it just loses the sting.

But I'll have to say, the performance from Mindee Ong, the little girl portraying young lotus and her father (forgot the actor's name) were just SUPERB. Maybe that's why I'm loving the first half (ALOT) more.

Liu Ling Ling and Qi Yu Wu's acting are just a wreckage. They did some breakthrough performance like Liu Ling Ling stripping and Qi Yu Wu dancing, but it doesn't make much of a difference other than being a comic relief.

There are also some scenes and dialogues which I wish weren't there like the reuse of some classic political phrases.

But still, from an artistically view, Royston Tan still managed to clinch firmly on.

So overall, 3.5/5 stars?

2008-08-27T02:04:00.002+08:00

Just when I thought I'm having a awesome holidays, this have to happen.

Fyp results are out.
Module overall grades are out.
Latest GPA are also out.

Fyp - D+ Might need to rework if GPA <2
Module grades - I failed 1. Means I need to retake.
Latest GPA - 1.83

Thanks guys.

1st Option: Retake the Fyp
2nd Option: Gotta somehow get my GPA >2 in one sem
3rd Option: Repeat another year
4th Option: Withdraw from school

T_T

2008-08-26T03:23:00.003+08:00

Alright guys, I'm not dead.

I've been slightly busy with social events, which is superb. God knows when can I enjoy myself like this again when school restarts. I've CE points that I DESPERATELY needs to fulfill, FYP project to work on soon, and of course, the regular classes.

Well, thats all. I'll try to update more often. Oh, I've notice that I hardly post any pictures anymore. So just for that sake, here, while I attended the fashion bloggers meet-up on Sunday.

Yes, just in case you don't already know I have a fashion blog, do click in HOR?!

www.trait-trajection.blogspot.com

2008-08-20T02:53:00.003+08:00

Alright, back from a "rojak" chalet, in the morning actually(was so freaking tired, I just have to settle myself in the mood for blogging). It's called the Rojak chalet cause of the random people of my RP network, those I know well, those I don't and those that I'm slightly acquainted with. Wasn't that bad actually, in addition of the fact that I'm not much of a "chalet" kinda person and would normally shy away from strangers. So was tangibly just stuffing myself with barbecued hotdogs, carbmeats, huge huge chicken thighs and marshmallows.
Played many board games brought by Kayden and the whole place was filled with noises(by about 15 people?) that the sercurity have to drop by our shelter several times throughout the night. Played somemore games with other stubborn awake-ers with the forfeit of drinking liqour(vodka) in which I do get some drinks. The vodka, a strong one, cause many of them to get drunk and puke one after another through the wee hours. It's kinda funny scene really. HAHA!
Anyway, without sleep, I went home at around 7++ am and as soon as I reached home, Mr bed's my best friend.

Trivia:
This holiday's been great as far. I'm not sourly staying home doing nothing that much anymore, even if I do, it's well deserved. I've consistent social events even before this holidays starts which I'm pushing other things aside now (like band).
I would have to head somewhere in search for a gift, for my coming up SG fashion bloggers meet-up(on sunday) either on today or fri. Would be heading somewhere(which I forgotten) with shiqi in a RP CE excursion on thurs.
I do HAVE time actually, but I've been feeling so shagged out so much that everything seems unimportant. I need motivation! I've some plans that I need to fulfill, for myself!
Alright, I'll have some sleep now. Bye!

2008-08-17T22:45:00.001+08:00

Damn, for the first time in my life, I got to see Singapore's flag up high in a victory ceremony of Olympics. Have to say, though embarrassingly, I was a little teary throughout. Go team Singapore GO!

2008-08-15T18:23:00.004+08:00

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

TEAM SINGAPORE

WOMEN'S PING PONG TEAM GOT THEMSELVES GUARANTEED TO COMPETE WITH CHINA FOR THE GOLD MEDAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SO A SILVER IS ENSURED!!!!!!!!!!!!

GO SINGAPORE GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!

yes, "ping pong" is table tennis.

2008-08-13T14:21:00.004+08:00

Sehsik got himself 4 discount tickets to the Singapore Flyer and he shared it with us!!! SANK SOU SEHSIK! We end up just have to pay $10 each and saved $80 altogether! Spell W-O-R-T-H-Y!
The view is STUNNING! Not as spectacular as Hong Kong but I'm sure when the Casino's up and done by end of next year, it's worth a debate. But nevertheless, it's one of the "DIE-DIE-MUST-GO-AND-EXPERIENCE-ONE-LA" in Singapore.

Sao sik

kao sao me
sik kao me
sao me kao sik

Our future casino. Amusingly, the construction view does attributes to the view. haha!

Sorry for some of the poor quality pictures. Would get the others from sik with higher resolution. :D

2008-08-09T00:14:00.001+08:00

I know it's very unlike of me to be posting this but, YES! BEIJING HUANG YING NI!!!!!!

Happy Olympics 2008 Beijing day!!

2008-08-06T23:37:00.002+08:00

I'm being EXTREMELY slow, but I'm sorry Ayu, as much as I love you, Shiina Ringo goes up through the top of my list when it comes to talents.

I need her new compilation CD!!

2008-08-06T22:35:00.001+08:00

GO LUTH GO!!!

2008-08-05T00:28:00.004+08:00

It's not that we're picky really, it's about being considerate. We know that you have very little time, even to yourself, but please, this is a place that we should feel comfortable and safe in. Now, with someone we barely know here like HALF of the whole time, how can we call this home?
Once in a while, of course, we're pleased to welcome her.

And to YOU, at least know that as long as you're IN here, you're using/spending/eating/breathing OUR STUFF. Show respect and appreciation.

Fucker, how brave of me to write this here.

Please, get your own home soon. It's RIDICULOUSLY SAD for me to say this, but it's for the better.

2008-07-30T17:07:00.002+08:00

Ahhh....

Whats better than a lazing weekday with absolutely no plans to oblige. With the TV on, a glass of bubbling vitamin C and carelessly running some thoughts of my next post for TraiT.

But the weather can't be less forgiving eh? What's up with the heat?!?!

2008-07-29T23:45:00.002+08:00

Look at the time now, and I'm still having cravings. Do I have a tongue of a pregnant women or what? The thing I'm craving for now, is mango. Utter randomness, I know, you don't have to tell me.

I need Nigella Lawson!

2008-07-27T13:31:00.002+08:00

Why do I feel so restless about blogging nowadays? It's not like I'm having a boring life, in fact, I DO have tons of things to write about. But somehow, something just blocked me from diligently logging into google account and type SOMETHING.

Well, just in summary, I'm OK :D

2008-07-23T21:00:00.002+08:00

FINALLY! IT'S OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Finished my FYP presentation in the afternoon and after that, walking out from RP has never been so breezed through my dried out hair.

Though things didn really turned out the way we expected to be, it's still over. We cant do anything about it. So whatever it is, it's 108% worth for a celebration, and thats a pack of marshmallows and me! :D

2008-07-20T13:03:00.006+08:00

Out in the early hours of Saturday for work, yes, the vinegar job asked the saos for help again. So for $50, we're saying, "WHY NOT?!".

It's at jurong health/medical centre, while there's a health event going on. So being one of the "healthier" drinks they're promoting there. There are booths of Anlene milk, BMI checking points, some new pad brands, bone mass checking points, free Wii-sports game, yeah, anything healthy, it's there.

I went off at 1pm, while Sao extended her helping hand till 2.30, with extra 10 bucks. Got home, rest, and out again to Jj birthday BBQ. The condo, his sister's place, is at the east side of singapore but it wasn't really that hard to find. Went there alone, cause the group that I should go with is taking MRT, when I prefer the Bus more. That area has many many bangalows which looked waaaaaaaay more posh than those in bukit timah.

Anyway, reached the BBQ place at 6.30pm and was quite surprised to see some of my sec school mates which I haven spoke to for a looong time! So it eventually turned out to be more of a gathering. HAHA! Went off at around 8pm to meet sao at PS for the Night Art Festival featuring The Dancing Sky by Studio Festi from Italy @ Singapore Museum! Let me tell you, it's FUCKING FUCKING FUCKING FUCKING FUCKING PAINFULLY PAINFULLY BLOODILY BLOODILY LUDICROUSLY STUNNING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I can NEVER describe it through words. It's either you experience it, or you never get it. Simple, period. Dancers with the moves of ultimate gace and elegance in dreamily flowing dresses flying/dancing/floating/swimming in the sky infront of the spectacular view of the Singapore museum. It's all in literalism. Throughout the whole show, EVERYONE was moaning outta stunning-ness, like it's the gayest country in independence.

Brought my cam, but for some fucking problem, everytime I need it, it runs low in battery. FUCKER you know.

It's such a pity yesterday was their last performance in Singapore.

2008-07-16T02:31:00.003+08:00

I need a job.
No money = no new clothes, no new stuff, no food, no pressure-free-outings, no Thailand trip, no genting trip.
It's not that I'm picky, but though I've got a few recommendations, I do want a job that I know I wouldn't feel a WASTE of time. Kayden introduced me to his job, as a samsung HP consultant or something, which I seriously appreciates his effort. Good pay, but there's just no BRIDGE between IT and me, really.
I wanna do something that don't have to be $7 per hour, just something that I can gain experience from, in a way that I would be interested in.

how?

2008-07-14T23:56:00.002+08:00

It's not early anymore, for a student in this case, and I just had a comforting cup of noodles and some well deserved graceful net surfing.

Yes, the hastily putted together FYP had finally been submitted. Now I can get back to my own primitive speed of walking, clicking, typing, checking of phone/emails/msn.

Something random:

Saw a friend's blog about her desire to lose weight even though she's ALREADY underweight. This, is a reflection of myself a few months back really.
I had suspicion of myself developing/having an eating disorder. It's NOT rare for a guy to get an eating disorder people. Search the web and you will be taught that 10% of anorexics/bulimics are males.
Anyway,
I lied to my friends when asked about my weight, which I would say a higher number just that they wouldn't get worried. When I was 53kg, I'll just say I'm 55.
Almost everyone I know threw comments about my bony structure. Every single one.

Now, I'm pretty sure that I DON'T HAVE any eating issues, though there was once when I'm not deliberately dieting, I went down to almost 50kg. Maybe it's the "muscles/fats weighting heavier/ligher when it's gained/loss" thing. I'm gradually climbing back up the scale towards 53 now. So yea.
Besides, I had vented all of my stess on ice-creams for the past few days. The comforting level of ice-creams are undeniable. So for that, I can confidently say that I don't have any eating disorder now!

And if you noticed, MANY hollywood celebrities are starting to gain more weight and look healthier. Even Mary-Kate, the hardcore ana, is now looking so much better with something between her bones and skin.
So people, I'd learnt my lesson. Please lose/gain weight for the right reasons. You may want a good-looking(subjectively) body, but you need a good working healthy body.

2008-07-14T03:55:00.002+08:00

76.6%, Silver, in OPEN category mind you. So it's VERY good ming you. Like what Mr Ong and Toh said mind you.

So mind you,

IT'S ALL GOOD FJSBEES!

YOU GUYS ARE WINNERS!

but still, what a happy+sad+angry day.

It's hard to see an ever-so-cheerful friend feeling so depressed, hopeless and helpless.

See what you had done children, even to yourself.

2008-07-12T01:10:00.002+08:00

Alright, a break from fyp.

It's all band, fyp, school, talks, band, fyp, school. GO LUTH GO!

School was pretty normal. Went for a talk to catch up my extremely lacking of CE points with my gang. Was DAMN funny when the magician asked for a number from the audience for the magic(what the talk is about) and some joker behind me said "8 billion". HAHAHAHAHA!!

Left school straight after my presentation for band. Practiced but still broke down a little during combine :(
I was tearing up(kinda paiseh to say this) during Victory with the french horn and during the last part when toh emphasized the trumpets to play a part sounding much like harmonica. I don;t know why, but it's damn moving(for me). The victory part, I know, cause it's the music itself(and the fact that OUR french horn's stepping up their game :D). But the trumpet part, sounds so.. Bittersweet? Make people cry only..

Initially planned to celebrate EI EI's birthday but the reminder of the fyp's dateline and the amount of things I have to do rings up and I had to skip the celebration. EI EI AR! SULIA AR! HAAPY BIRTHDAY!!!!! LIKE WHAT MY SMS SAID!!!!
So I'm here, still mindlessly typing the report. (No naz, I did not copy eventually.)

OK! BACK TO FYP!

GO LUTH GO!

2008-07-09T23:08:00.001+08:00

Man, Don't ask me why?

Was kinda disappointed. With myself of course.

NEVER MIND! GO LUTH GO!!!!!!!

2008-07-08T13:08:00.002+08:00

Grow up?

2008-07-05T16:11:00.002+08:00

Back from a short FYP meetin. Supposedly a long one, but Hu shuang caught up in something last minute and we're forced to move it till tomorrow.

But the main reason of me posting this entry is not because of that really. It's how NICE PICK & BITE'S ORH NI(yam paste) IS!!!!

Yes, a little exaggerating(and random) to post about this but it's REALLY FUCKING NICE! It was when the bus was approaching plaza and it kinda rings up the long crave for orh ni which I couldn't get it the last time. So I alighted and got myself that. :D
Reached home, without even caring about opening the windows first, I digged in. It's SUPER THICK, which is PERFECT for me. When I need something thick and heavy, it MUST BE THIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIICK AND HEEEEEAAAAAAAAVVVY. Though I got a little sick(which is rare) when I'm also done with whole pack. Well, it's the size of those beancurd dessert containers which explains how hard it is NOT to get sick from finishing it.

Nope, no pictures, which it's kinda useless posting this entry but please people, go try it!

2008-07-03T20:38:00.002+08:00

Ok, first is Sex And The City, and now Friends is rumored to be hitting the big screen. Not much of a fan for that show but it's nice. :D

2008-07-03T00:13:00.005+08:00

SO DAMN FUCKING CUTE!!!!!!!Our crazy percussionists, all different personalities mixed in one perfect whole. :D

2008-07-01T14:43:00.001+08:00

GO LUTH GO!

2008-06-29T23:14:00.001+08:00

I really hope it's just me.

I just don't feel APPRECIATED.
Why why why?
Is it that I didn't show my LOVE more obviously?
Or superficially, I've not done enough?

I'm starting to feel like I'm such a redundancy really.
I'm there cause I'm there.
My existence makes NO difference.
I'll cause more confusion if I were to join in.

So much for nothing.
Everyone's useful, one way or another.
And me?
Come to think of it, I'm not quite sure why I'm there really.
I'm having loads of dreams to pursue,
yet,
I'm here doing nothing.
Sitting on that rack all the time.
Never am I there just to have dinner with certain people.
Never am I there just to gather.
I'm there to find a purpose why I'm there.
And just when I thought I'm always with one,
denial smacked me right straight into my face.

just a "thank you"?

2008-06-28T21:49:00.004+08:00

I've offically pathetically neglected my current blog eh?

Sorry. It's been an addiction to keep my TraiT updated constantly as it's the start S/S 09 men's and Resort 09's apparently still on going.

Anyway, life's been socially and occupationally hectic solemnly. It's school, FYP, friends, band, and while it might not sounds alot, believe me, it DOES. Especially when it's all on concurrently happening, it's hard to get a pleasing 12 hrs slp really. I'm still trying hard to repress the tendacy to skip school(though I still do..). HAHA!

Alright, back to the "life" part, IT'S ESPERANZA YESTERDAY!!

It's school in the day and as soon as the facilitator finishes, I headed STRAIGHT to TRCC for their rehearsal. Impressed by how the theater amplified the sound of the band and the view, DAMN, was it majestic.
The backstage was unexpectingly hollywood really. But according to Kaiyih, they were supposed to have a bigger room as compared to the one I saw when I reached. Got it?

Anyway,
the concert started, with me sat together with lao sao jwen joyce and ailing, in a desirable way. It sounded more grandly on the circles seats, which is good. Saw UNCOUNTABLE familiar faces planting the seats. Band related, non-band related. Saw Yuan chen and gang which is super funny when he starts to ask me whether I wanna join them for the sentosa trip today across the seats. HAHA! Like it's the best time to ask hor?
Back on the concert,
the first half was nerve-racking honestly. Maybe like what naz said, if we were there for the rehearsal, expectations are bound to be present during the actual concert. So jwen n I was clinching throughout for every crucial like solos, Dua Pau, high notes, fast tempos, off beats, among others.

Interval,
as usual, heart-warming reunions, flashing cameras, people who know how to dress and those who don't. Haha, alright, the latter is kinda MY usual look-outs.
Accompanied kao for her dinner at the cafe in TRCC, which caused us to miss out like 4 songs from the second half. Managed to catch Japanese Graffiti though! It was so UPLIFTING! The whole hall was tangibly dancing! Well, not the WHOLE hall, but as far as we're concerned, judging from how crazy we were. LOVE LOVE LOVE LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE japanese graffiti!

Went back with them to fajar, toh debriefed them, had supper at macdonald's(yes, I was trying hard not to think too much about the FRIES), and home sweet home. Finished my homework and it was the deserving rest.

Yes, it's was a REST indeed. Cause I had to wake up at 7.30 for a band exchange at CCHY. The attendance was pathetically small, but by the looks of it, no one really cared about it really. It's more of a "hurry-do-what-we're-supposed-to-do-and-let-us-go-home-PLEASE.".

yea.

2008-06-27T00:00:00.003+08:00

ESPERANZA III!!

2008-06-22T23:34:00.002+08:00

I wanna go Thailand. Browsed pictures of their cheap shopping streets and saw countless of exotic items which I hope that you should know is practically my style.

Its in the morning when I woke up to check my phone with a missed call. It's from naz, who's in Bangkok currently. Smsed her "Eh, I thought you overseas? Why?". She replied like an hour later, "Too late, you missed it. Wanted to buy you a high Greek sandals(I guess she means Gladiators).". Though Gladiators are DEAD in my book, IT'S STILL A GIFT! Haha!